Paaaain, can’t get enough

 

“Paaaain, without love, paaaaain, can’t get enough, paaaain, like it rough, cuz I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all.”  -- Three Days Grace

Damn, emotions are crazy. When you don’t communicate your thoughts, you end up bottling them, speaking them to yourself. That brings up emotions and they talk to you, messing with your head. Seriously. But at the same time, it would be nice if what needs to be left behind is left behind and what needs to be considered gets considered. What is silence but a concerted effort to make decisions without the input or general awareness of the surrounding environ, whether that be background, people, readable inputs, etc.

Feel like this doesn’t make any sense, but maybe it does. Time to leave it and revisit in a couple of days.

Peace out.

Feelings

Emotions are crazy! How do you process them in a rational and/or logical manner?

Classes start

Tomorrow. My first day of the second half of my fifth year. And its not the end. I'll be going on another semester after that...talk about 5.5 years in college. Its upsetting. Everyone I know have been and will be done before me. But life goes on.

Pensive

Pensive...that's how I feel. I feel so lazy sometimes, so able to do things but just not wanting to do them. I feel meaningless sometimes and I someone or something would fire up my engines and kindle the passions lying dead in me. Painting, programming, poetry...heck, even just taking an interest in classes would make me thankful. I feel like I'm heartless at times and i view the world and the people in it with some very gray spectacles, very bored and dispassionate. It sucks, but I don't care. I like ranting but i don't like people conversing about it, i like being left alone and i like getting the easy way out by doing nothing. I feel spoilt at times, annoying at times, honorable at times and so confused, other times. I hate this. I like someone, and this person is a friend...but went off home to Canada without a hint of "cya"...i thought we were trying to be friends here not strangers. Sigh. I just hate myself but really I'm just numb, attuned to ignoring everything, taking it all in stride and tossing it aside, tuning it all out. Anyways, sleep time then to go fail a final so i can get my daily lectures of being worthless extended for another eternity. Bleh.